Who Do You Tell?

Wonder who she's listening to?

Short blog today...

So... I was thinking today while talking with people, who do you tell your darkest deepest secrets to?

As I'm sure some of you have gathered I'm a VERY private person who's only sociable when it's convenient for me... But in thinking about it I have a very select group that get to see the REAL Alan Varah. Sometimes to that person's chagrin...

I guess my big thing is... I'm a listener... and in fact, I do enjoy listening to people who have problems because I think emotionally I want that person to vent because even a little bitch fest can be cathartic... I can't say I always want to listen, but I do because it can be good for the soul and the spirit...

So who do I tell stuff to?

My big sister is one... But there are somethings that I still don't tell her because of my fear of disappointing her... But she's always been one of my outlets when my job wasn't going well or when things weren't as rosy as they should've been... We'd usually have our little bitch fests over dinners and fixing up her house... (What can I say? I'm a sucker for food... lol)

My younger brother Adam is one of my partners in crime, I've found that as he grows into a man he's beginning to come into his own and has smart opinions that I can usually get down with... So I would probably say I've had some VERY cathartic talks with him over lunch/dinner (hmmm... seems to be a theme...) and I've usually felt better about it.

Actually I've got some other friends that I tell a lot to such as my friends Paco, Matt S, and my current boss Matt D (damn... I know a lot of Matt's.... I apparently know a lot of Chris' too... lol). But I think that's more of a function of them being the same age as me but it's great to talk to them nonetheless about our issues and daily problems.

I'm sure you're wondering why I didn't mention my mother or my father.... Well much in the asian style we don't talk about our feelings (apparently that's too hippy...) For me though that's more of a fear of my parents see my failures as a person as opposed to not feeling comfortable telling them things...

So... I guess the point of this post is thank you to my confidants for keeping me sane and listening to me, since I have to listen to others problems all day... lol

Okay... So I lied about the short blog thing... lol