Yeah... I think I'm done trying to be the nice guy all the time. My thought is what is this getting me? Not a damn thing...
I'm starting to think that maybe I'm a sucker for being the nice guy... There's that old phrase of some people see kindness as a weakness... I'm beginning to wonder if the people I associate with think that of me...
I dunno anymore... and I'm at the point where I really don't care... I'm feeling quite disillusioned at this moment and it's because of my expectations of my friends... I probably shouldn't care and normally I don't... But I think true to my chinese zodiac nature (it's a horse by the way...) I do fall in love with people too easily...
But it's not in my nature to be the jag-off... which is what the opposite sex seems to be attracted to... it makes no sense to me...
So at this point, I think I'm gonna just go into a bubble and not socialize for a while... I'll find out who my real friends are when they come and find me instead of me trying to find them all the damn time...
Btw, I apologize for the disjointed thoughts... I'm outta practice on this blogging thing...
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